Like A Cat Tied To Stick That's Driven Into Frozen Winter Shit.

do i hang out with really flaky people, or am i just not a priority, cause i get people bail on the plans they make with me so often. this friday elijah said he would come over but he didn't and still hasn't called me to tell me why, and today angelique said we would hang out but she never called me back when she told me she would. and i know darya has flaked a few times. it's just so frustrating! if you would just call and tell me we're not gonna be able to hang out then i can at least make other plans, and it's not like it takes any effort to do that either.
i talk more than my teacher does in government class, it's funny. everyone is just so gosh darn liberal, and have the wrong idea about conservatives. it's not just kids in my school either, i think emma asked me to join a group that was something like, "hannity has a small big head, let's put it on a pike" or something like that. i mean, i understand it's a joke and stuff, but i have a feeling if i started a group that was like, "obama has a small big head, let's lynch that fool" it would be an outrage. and it's simply a stupid group, cause i bet no one has evvvvvver listened to any of his shows, they just heard he's a "radical" republican from other biased medias. also, since so many people are liberals, and kids never have to defend what they say, they really have no idea why they believe what they believe.
i'm reading crime and punishment by Dostoyevsky, and it's all about this man who kills two people. he kills them because he has the belief that it's okay for some very few and extraordinary people to, in order to achieve something great, do whatever it takes to achieve what they were born to do, whether that entails them killing someone or not. he believes there are two categories of people: 1. the ordinary people (the inferiors) who are simply here to make sure there are enough human beings on the planet and to give birth to the other category of people. 2. the extraordinary (the superiors) who are the very very few humans who actually come up with something new and further the human race. the second group is so rare to come by, and they are so crucial to all of humanity, that it is there right to do whatever they need to in order to accomplish all that they can. they don't have an obligation to exercise these above the law powers, but they do have the rights, at least in the eyes of the main character in the book. reading this book has made me look at some of the big names in human history i.e. alexander the great, napoleon, julius ceasar, einstein, thomas edison, jesus, thomas jefferson, socrates, buddha, thomas paine (or T. Paine as he's called in the hood), bob dylan, Hitler, ghandi, etc. what's amazing is every single one of these people, other than jesus, were just humans, some only living 30 or so years. they're just like you and me, but they've had such a profound impact upon the earth. how could a single human, like genghis khan, ever attain that kind of power. i'm not saying all of these people were benevolent, or even good people but it's just so awesome that humans have such a potential for greatness.
who's more important: the man doing the action, the historian documenting the man's action, or the next ruler for not destroying the historian's documents?
Simple Pleasures: following through with a plan, coming up with a unique idea when someone asks, "so whaduhyuh wanna do?", realizing you have the same amount of rights as your teacher when you turn 18 (actually that's probably a more complicated pleasure), not having a cough, buying something that works for a real long time, the way your heartbeats after you spoke in a debate in the classroom, making time for reading