Sunday, September 27, 2009

I Wanna Tell Her That I Love Her A Lot, But I Gotta Get A Belly Full Of Wine.

24 hours ago i was at a party with over 15 single ladies and i was the only single, straight guy there.
17 hours ago i was having the most painful vomiting experience of my life. why is it that something that causes so much joy causes so much pain at the same time. freaking alcohol.
i talked to this girl named madeline about The Smiths for quite a long time. we had started drinking wine together before the party began. then she took some ecstasy (technically it was just powderized MDMA, which is the active ingredient in ecstasy) and we started smoking together. it was cool though, we both kept on sharing one cigarette, instead of each of us taking our own. she said she loved me multiple times. she was so sweet. we were all sitting on a wodden porch that had a view and we were all talking and laughing. everyone had their conciousness altered somehow. it was such a typical teenager thing to do, it was great. then this girl started to throw up, and i helped by rubbing her back and telling her it was okay. she was all white and pale, but she was okay soon enough. i realized i was one of the oldest people at the party though, and i'm usually the youngest out of groups of people i hang out with, so that was kinda odd. they were all seniors, juniors, or sophomores. darya is going to cabrillo with me, but we were the oldest i'm pretty sure. so weird. i'm swearing off alcohol for a while though. unless gabby and i get sake at i love sushi on wednesday, lol.
my weekends are so long! it's great, and i wouldn't want it back to the old way, but it's also kinda odd. i almost feel like i'm not even going to school. that's probably only because i didn't have any homework this weekend. i just have to enjoy myself instead of trying to look at life like a waiting game. yes, the moments ahead of us will be good, and should be looked forward to, but what's happening in the present is much more important. i think gandalf said something like that once. he's pretty smart. a wizzkid if you will. lawwwlwlwlwlwllwlwl.
i learned yesterday on the guitar last week, which is a song i've been wanting to learn ever since i picked up a guitar. i just finally was near a computer when i remembered the song, and was motivated enough to learn it. i'm happy. and my guitar class is awesome. i'm learning music theory, which is what i've wanted to learn for so long!

Friday, September 18, 2009

You Are Sleeping. You Do Not Want To Believe. You Are Sleeping.

i don't feel like writing in this anymore. it takes too much effort. i don't like the necessary forethought. articulation. it all takes too much effort. see, i just used the same phrase twice. if i actually cared i would change that. and make my sentences longer. screw it.
Cassidy. that's been my life lately. She isn't here, but she will be. in five months or so. i have made her a mixed cd, and ceramic mug, and an eight page letter (single spaced) that i can't wait to give her. she never gets any mail, so i'm sure she'll enjoy it. can't wait till she gets back...
so, there's the application on facebook called farmville that i was playing. basically you plant crops and it takes 24 actual hours (less or more depending on the type of plant it is) for them to grow and you make money and buy bigger land and buildings, blah blah blah. it was basically a way to waste time. well, i hung out with matt last night and he basically said that the game was pointless and i could be spending my time better, and it was so true! i haven't checked it since, and i won't ever again. i'll read a book.
cabrillo is cool. yah. lots of good looking women there. can't help but notice. especially in my ceramics class. josephine=babe
i watched gummo today. it was intense, to say the least. there were quite a few parts that made me sad, cause i feel like the characters could've existed in real life, and stuff like that actually happens to people. i didn't understand the rabbit kid though. who was he? why did he find the dead cat at the end? why was he kissing the girls? i'm glad i saw the movie, but it gives you one of those gut feeling after you watch it.
and i'll update it whenever i feel like it, thank you. bitch.
okay, one more thing before i go. the fog recently...love it. so much. i wish it was always this foggy. like pea soup, as yukon cornelious (sp?) would say. gold. GOLD!!!! and silver. silver and gold.