I Wanna Tell Her That I Love Her A Lot, But I Gotta Get A Belly Full Of Wine.

24 hours ago i was at a party with over 15 single ladies and i was the only single, straight guy there.
17 hours ago i was having the most painful vomiting experience of my life. why is it that something that causes so much joy causes so much pain at the same time. freaking alcohol.
i talked to this girl named madeline about The Smiths for quite a long time. we had started drinking wine together before the party began. then she took some ecstasy (technically it was just powderized MDMA, which is the active ingredient in ecstasy) and we started smoking together. it was cool though, we both kept on sharing one cigarette, instead of each of us taking our own. she said she loved me multiple times. she was so sweet. we were all sitting on a wodden porch that had a view and we were all talking and laughing. everyone had their conciousness altered somehow. it was such a typical teenager thing to do, it was great. then this girl started to throw up, and i helped by rubbing her back and telling her it was okay. she was all white and pale, but she was okay soon enough. i realized i was one of the oldest people at the party though, and i'm usually the youngest out of groups of people i hang out with, so that was kinda odd. they were all seniors, juniors, or sophomores. darya is going to cabrillo with me, but we were the oldest i'm pretty sure. so weird. i'm swearing off alcohol for a while though. unless gabby and i get sake at i love sushi on wednesday, lol.
my weekends are so long! it's great, and i wouldn't want it back to the old way, but it's also kinda odd. i almost feel like i'm not even going to school. that's probably only because i didn't have any homework this weekend. i just have to enjoy myself instead of trying to look at life like a waiting game. yes, the moments ahead of us will be good, and should be looked forward to, but what's happening in the present is much more important. i think gandalf said something like that once. he's pretty smart. a wizzkid if you will. lawwwlwlwlwlwllwlwl.
i learned yesterday on the guitar last week, which is a song i've been wanting to learn ever since i picked up a guitar. i just finally was near a computer when i remembered the song, and was motivated enough to learn it. i'm happy. and my guitar class is awesome. i'm learning music theory, which is what i've wanted to learn for so long!